Grey

The day i was walking alone,all of sudden i felt my heart beating so fast ..felt it so deep i got stoned at the moment.There is my favorite love song but it sounds pale to me,i cry.You smile then i used to and now no one does.I go empty when i see you,feels like i don't even exist and when i feel it i don't like it.i want to run to reach the place where feeling nothing means out there.I hate you karma' for the part creating loneliness.we cry,tears fall,we fall we learn to stand up,But when lonely nothing is left paralyzed and i hate the shine.

(encounter #4)

I don't want mundane~

Where is the fact to live real? Why does so many questions appear where none is there to answer.Referring you, you walked away leaving me halfway. How stupid you are, you described yourself thinking as standing in front of mirror.Do you realize,what it feels like to be left alone and made to move on with the feeling loneliness.Feels like am deaf and blind too ,striking to uncertainty.Memorise keep hunting me,every second of time my mind gets wasted.Good feelings are gone whereas bad is always around.Everything to me is meaningless while it was like a diamond when you were holding me.They say move on' but where?.. I'm still here feeling like a empty vase making more noise day by day.Fact i learned 'sometimes to receive the love we long, begging is the other option'. You abandoned me and i cannot even say "I love you".
(encounter#3)