I don't want mundane~

Where is the fact to live real? Why does so many questions appear where none is there to answer.Referring you, you walked away leaving me halfway. How stupid you are, you described yourself thinking as standing in front of mirror.Do you realize,what it feels like to be left alone and made to move on with the feeling loneliness.Feels like am deaf and blind too ,striking to uncertainty.Memorise keep hunting me,every second of time my mind gets wasted.Good feelings are gone whereas bad is always around.Everything to me is meaningless while it was like a diamond when you were holding me.They say move on' but where?.. I'm still here feeling like a empty vase making more noise day by day.Fact i learned 'sometimes to receive the love we long, begging is the other option'. You abandoned me and i cannot even say "I love you".
(encounter#3)